Thursday, October 23, 2008

that's just life

this feeling that is flowing in me right now is only all too familiar, and yet till this day i still couldnt find any words that could comprehend this raw sensation.


i told a friend something that i shouldve said a long time ago. throughout the months, the words just kept accumulating like sacred little rosary beads at the tip of my tongue, and yet i always managed to dry swallow them back inside when the moment comes. the once cold, hard pearly drops always manage to turn warm after being nestled for a little too long in the heat of my mouth. 

it happened this evening after i ran into the house from the pouring rain and came home to your messages. there was no use of keeping it in any longer.

they all flowed out like a pink-silverish stream of unguarded spirits out in the open. in a way im really glad that i did it. im glad that i told him that im not going to continue standing for this anymore. its not something that he could easily discard like how he did to the others. im not just some punchbag which you could throw a few blows at when youre pissed. i come with dignity. try giving a little respect.

theres no need for your reasons as they are just empty words to me. you shouldve thought about it before you did anything. the excuse about it being your habit has being used for one too many times. you dont have to apologize. and neither do i owe you an apology for not giving you yet another chance. what has been done cant be changed. we just have to move on with our lives and hopefully learn something from it. 

take care, my friend.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

this guy makes my brain looks like it took a year's supply of laxatives.

mi, i think i lao sai-ed.. again.
i was going to write about something that made me really upset earlier today. then as i turned on a song so that i wouldnt have to type out this post in the silence, my ears started to pick up the lyrics of the song and i thought to myself, "is it worth wasting your time writing about some selfish person? its a waste of blog space! get a life!"

so here i am, putting this down to remind my friends who have been affected by this unnecessary drama for the past month plus. seriously people, just get a life!

he's going to be like this for as long as he wants to. theres really nothing that we could do. and nothing that we should be doing! so lets just do ourselves a favour and let him be. stop lying on the road and hiring a monster truck to run over our bodies 123897123142 times already!

people are gonna continue seeing him as an innocent fella.

people are gonna continue to believe that he is a nice person deep down inside.

people are gonna continue thinking that he REALLY is THAT simple.

this list will never end. but the most important thing is...

so what?

seriously. so what if hes a major anal case and still theyre gonna be people who buys into his shit?

seeing him miserable isnt gonna make us any happier.. for long. maybe for a while yea we'll be so effing liberated! but then another few months down the road and theres gonna be another anal case shoving him/herself up our bowel systems and causing more brain diarrhoea. theres a whole clan of this anal cases. theyre just never gonna stop reproducing. so we'll just have to live with the fact that theyre always gonna be around... somewhere!

its funny how one song can just... clear my head so thoroughly. hahahahahhahahaha...

have a nice day people! i know i will. =)

p/s: it's weezer's pork and beans. ;-)

pp/s: Acute diarrhea is a common cause of death in developing countries... In many cases of diarrhea, replacing lost fluid and salts is the only treatment needed. (wikipedia, 2008) SEE!!! even wikipedia agrees with me that these people kills us if only choose not to replace them with erm say... happier thoughts?

Friday, October 10, 2008

when you have a weekend to yourself with ah lai

have been recently down with the flu. makes me at the number one on the tree-huggers hit list. T___T


suddenly im missing my primary and high school friends so much. (read: ros, lisa, chanz). the times where the only thing we had to worry about was how to beat the other houses during sports day. boohoo...

on a lighter note however, things hadnt been a completely smooth ride. but thats alright, i know i'll get through it with probably some slight scratches and bruises here and there to say the least *pats self*

erm.. yea so im happy and still kicking!

thats all folks.

p/s: sorry for the random and short post. but will tire you guys with a longer and hopefully non-morbid post the next time when assignments are not up to my arsehulll.

have a great weekend! :-*

please pardon the one on the left.  your left not mine.