Just Another Soldier on the Road to Nowhere

It's funny how a few hours of difference could put your emotions in a 180degrees spin. A couple of hours after the last post, I couldn't seem to fall off to sleep so decided to just hit the gym and hopefully get tired out so that I could go to bed. Turns out that I was feeling even more refreshed so I took the opportunity to call up two people to wish them Happy Fathers Day. Turns out that both didn't pick up their phone. But one of them replied and it wasn't good news. What began as a funny and poking message then turned into something mind shattering.

It was one of those news that I was just too stunned to even react to it. I only started to feel again after I called her up because I really needed someone to talk to after that message. I really didn't know what to say. All I did was just sob into the receiver. The painful kind. Where every sob seems to be sucking a huge amount of air from your lungs.

I don't know. It's been such a long time since I had to come across this again. I've had three relatives passed away in such a short period of time; and immensely small gap between each years. Perhaps this time it's not as serious as I think it is. But that's an even scarier thought. Because everytime I'm being told that it's not as bad as I think, that's when I get doused with cold water after that been said. I hate this feeling. I hate it that I'm crying over this. I hate that I can't do anything at this point. I hate being so stupid as to hope that all hard feelings could be put aside at times like these. I hate feeling so helpless and crippled and all I could do is just to get down on my knees and pray to whoevers listening to take this pain away. I hate being so weak up to the point that I have to write this down to hopefully clear it out of my mind for the time being.

I really can't continue with what or how I had intended to write this, on how I thought I had to recollect my thoughts and stop crying. I hate being this weak when it comes to situations like this. Perhaps I should lie down now.

I am going to bed happy =)

I swear that chatting with random people on msn during sleepless nights are so invigorating!

karen says:
hey lemme ask you something!

karen says:
what do you think is the worst thing a girl could do?

Jun Jie says:
hmmm..

Jun Jie says:
reject a guy's proposal to make love?

karen says:
hahahahhahhaaahhahahhaahhahaha

karen says:
whatttttttttt???!!

karen says:
why?

Jun Jie says:
lol hahaha

Jun Jie says:
im just saying la

Jun Jie says:
thats quite potong steam too lol

karen says:
HAHAHAHA!!!!

Jun Jie says:
lol thats something that came into my mind haha

karen says:
okay then now lemme ask you another question!

karen says:
urm...

karen says:
what/who would you bring if you were stuck in a shopping centre which is having a 70% sales? (name 5)

Jun Jie says:
cash?

Jun Jie says:
credit card lol

Jun Jie says:
i prefer shopping alone

karen says:
whattt??!!! youre so boring!

karen says:
why isnt my name in that list huh???

Jun Jie says:
you so bising

Jun Jie says:
hehe

karen says:
say that again!

karen says:
okay wait i take that back

karen says:
before you REALLY say that again

karen says:
and i shall now bestow upon you the third question!

karen says:
if there is one place in the world you could be (for below rm1500), where would you be? and what junk food will you stash in your along in your bag?

Jun Jie says:
i think i just pull a piece of the wall out zzz

Jun Jie says:
you mean my budget is 1500?

karen says:
yes

karen says:
what??!! you eat walls for snacks?!! is that why youre so stick thin??? zzz

Jun Jie says:
i damn strong lor can do that haha

Jun Jie says:
err..

Jun Jie says:
malacca =)

Jun Jie says:
1500 more to spend~

karen says:
why are you so boooooooooooooooooooringggggg???

karen says:
youre hopeless lar you know?

Jun Jie says:
1500 how to spend at japan wor?

karen says:
*whispers* budak lala yang suka pergi jepun..

okay after that it just went out of control already. and now i'm officially sleepy therefore i shall bid you all good night~ :-*

Another Short Post

Q: What do you do when you have a webcam but hardly use it besides camming with the family?

A: Get an equally retarded friend who's as crazy about camwhoring and doing redundant things over the camera as you and is not worried about looking stoooooooopid!

Presenting... LEONARDEZ!!!

He looks like a total kiddo here after his haircut that I really had to take a picture of him ><

Our second attempt at acting cute but ended up with him being distracted by his pita
-_________-

p/s: I know that the pictures doesn't really do us much justice and the fact that it was taken with a camera is even lagi stupid. Was supposed to use printscreen but then the file will be too big for me to send it over to him and it wil take a million years to load. I wished I had taken the pictures of us being a terrorist and a ninja and a samurai and Siti Nurhaliza and Tina Toon but we were laughing our asses off that neither of us remembered to capture them. T_________________T

Rebellious IMs

Adui.. Just got back from the gym bout two hours ago and msn and my comp decided to gang up on me... again! -____________-

So within the duration of bout 10-15mins when my comp was starting up, I had this plastered on my face the whole time:

Posing for muka pek chek. Sorrylar.. takkan want me to put up my REALLY ugly pek chek face meh?

By the way, I came across this on YouTube and was blown away immediately!

p/s: I would've uploaded the video here but I'm a real noob when it comes to things like this so my apologies okay? *grins uncomfortably*

It's Contagious!

Am I still happy today you ask? YEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

In fact, I'm so happy that I've been grinning along with Mr. Wilson the whole day long!

Pre-dawn Happiness

I think I just found a box of happiness. It just came in the mail today.

It's like being in love all over again. <3<3<3

I sound so gay don't I? HAHAHAHAHA!!!